This Life

30 10 2006

My name engulfed in hard cement

Departing serenely another day

And make their hurting souls lament

So they can heal and washed away


Forgotten sentiment of the living

Outweigh emotions of the dead

And now the white gates are giving

No comfort no water no bread


If the darkness is at full extent

Banished me solitary from light

And my bleeding heart will repent

Fade away from feeling and sight


Despite our eternity will always end

Regardless of the impediment battle field

And demise will soon become our friend

The heavens and hell will yield


So when my conclusion comes with grace

Forget retribution and past harms

And death be marked with a face

Of a friend with open arms


Story: A Lifestyle That Is Me

30 10 2006

I lay in bed. The darkness surrounded me. The air was stale and cold.

A light shone through my window where the curtain wouldn’t block it out, no matter how hard I tried to cover it. It never bothered me though, not as much as the hole in my window from those rotten kids in the street.

I knew they hated me and I hated them. I never fitted in anywhere went, so what I didn’t need anyone else. No one else needed me.

Well that was a matter of opinion.

I guess the fact when you’ve been alone as long as I have in a short life, you only have one opinion.

It’s funny I’ve always replaced words like lonely with independence and friends with liability, they don’t really help the pain but then again what would.


No death would only prolong the pain. People can be stupid thinking death is the only way out, in reality it’s the only way out for the pure. Me? I’m not pure. I’m a disgrace to this world.

My only way out is any drugs I can get my hands on. They keep me sain, they make me insane and yet an addiction is my redeemer.

A lifestyle of course there will always be fucken goodie goodies that think they know best. Constantly people telling you that you have a problem, that you need help and that they can help you because they care.

They think all they know, that they could possibly understand but until that moment when nothing else matters and your soul is lifted outside of time and space, a feeling of satisfaction washes over your entire being, they don’t know fucking shit!

That is my only escape.

That is my only alternative.

That is me.

My Fav Character Of Aliens

28 10 2006

I could always just cut and past all the information I found on this website about my fav movie and character but I thought I should put a link to this sick as site.

El Riesgo Siempre Vive- The Risk Lives Forever 

Jackass Movies If I Haven’t Seen It, It’s New To Me

27 10 2006

Attack Dogs

Human Red Carpet

Human Pinata

Dutch BMX

Herald Sun- Funny Story

21 10 2006

Lost driver booze busted


October 21, 2006 12:00am

SOMETIMES the term bloody idiot is not strong enough.

After drinking the equivalent of 10 pots of beer and getting lost while driving to a job interview in Torquay, Terence Green stopped at a booze bus to ask for directions.

Instead of getting a map, Green was breath tested.

He recorded a blood alcohol reading of .103 per cent after telling police he had not had a drink for three years.

The 55-year-old Corio man pleaded guilty in Geelong Magistrates’ Court to one count of exceeding .05.

James Halliday, for Green, said his client had been driving to The Sands estate for a job interview before getting lost.

He said Green then drove back along the road where he saw two mates, who gave him a drink of what he thought was soft drink.

Magistrate Jon Klestadt said he had found it hard to accept Green’s story about the soft drink and disqualified him from driving for 20 months. Green also was fined $750.

Quotes For The Broken Hearted

15 10 2006

Quotes and Other Bits and Pieces That I’ve Written or Found


(The majority of them are mine)


1. “Sing the sorrow

Before tomorrow

Cry away

Before today

Feel the light

When in fright

Darkness as coal

Surround your soul

Do not cry

You did try

For whatever you do

I’ll be there for you” – Carly


2. “You can never break a broken person. You can only smash them more” – Carly


3. “Would you shoot an enemy? Would you shoot your best friend? What’s the difference?” – Unknown


4. “Words are unnecessary because they add nothing” – Unknown


5. “Dead and Dying In Heaven” – Old
Melbourne Jail


6. “For whatever we lose, like a you or a me, it’s always ourselves we find at the sea” – E.E Cummings


7. “For whatever we do, like force a tear to our eye, we become doves with wings, fly high fly high” – Carly


8. “Man is neither angel nor beast, and the unfortunate thing is that he who would play the angel plays the beast” –Blaise Pascal


9. “My eyes will look up to the stars once. But they will burn long after my eyes see no more” – Carly


10. ”It isn’t enough for your heart to break because everybody’s heart is broken now.”
-Allen Ginsberg

11. “I have no love in my life for I see no light and feel no warmth. My existence is a whirlpool of endless hopes and dreams” – Carly


12. “Regret for wasted time is just more wasted time” –Mason Cooley


13. “There dwell the children of the dark Night, the dread gods Sleep and Death” – Hesiod

Poem: Someone Please Watch Over Me

9 10 2006

Someone please watch over me 

I find it hurts to breath

Do you see me shake?

No of course you wouldn’t

No one see’s me at all


The air is freezing

Turning my blood to ice

Passing carelessly

My veins desolation


My eyes sting

Crying blood and tears

Their broken doors  

Held shut for so long


My tormented soul

Trapped in isolation

Someone free me

Help me! Let me out!


I fight heartlessly

Battles never won

Scream and kill

Shattering just a mirror


I need care

Safety of Comfort

Someone talk to me

Reassure me love me


My legs hurt

I can’t run anymore

I have to rest

Don’t leave me, please!


My shattered heart

Stone cold

Opened and broken

No glue no time


Don’t abandon me

Someone help me!

Bring me back to life